Its the first night I have slept right through in I don't know how long! So much energy and enthusiasm, I was surprised. I suppose it has something to do with a weeklong bed rest. Still no reply from Lovely Man, not even for the bank details. I had to send him a text last minute last night as his sister had sent me belated birthday wishes. I wanted to let him know that she had talked to me, but I had said nothing about our change. His relationship status on facebook finally changed.
A lovely day that began by making myself feel pretty. I had dyed my hair a slightly darker blonde last night, so I felt good, and new and stunning. Off to work, much earlier than needs be, this time to the computer job. I got loads accomplished and listened to lots of new and uplifting music.
This makes me happy: (if it doesn't play, Lisa Hannigan, What'll I do)
So prettiness, productivity and pleasantness aside, I headed home. Arriving, I found my housemate had made dinner, and had planned that we go to the cinema. Inspired and excited (I was quite hyperactive... I blame the drugs) I donned full Audrey Hepburn attire in honor of the movie we were to see:
The Lovely Man and I had been so excited to go and see this. So I was worried I would be sad seeing it with just S, but it was absolutely wonderful. I want to write a full review, but I would rather if you knew nothing about it and just went and saw it. Definitely dress up, even if it's just a trilby, it's worth it!
I would include a picture of my attire, but I don't know, perhaps staying invisible is a good plan.
There is a downside to having a smartphone, and that's the constant knowledge of when you receive an email - I received none. Nothing, not even about the bank details. My heart hardens (happily?)
We left the cinema and went to meet U at a divine little joint that is styled prohibition era - nude women on the walls, mini chandeliers, and table service. On arrival, we were unsure what to get to drink - I teetotal now, so I haven't found my new goto. So I just asked for 'Something Nice', and that is exactly what the barman bought me... in a cocktail glass, with pistachio nuts... which were free!
Feeling things go my way again is so refreshing. The uphill battle I had been fighting for so long seems to finally have brought me to the top of the mountain, and now I am sliding down, on the back of an oyster! I don't know that this fight had anything to with The Lovely Man... financial problems, college and work pressure, family stuff; it all compounded at times. But today, things were ok.S left, and U stayed, and we had a delightful time mocking girls who looked in the mirror behind us too many times, and oggled at the wholesome looking guy sitting next to us. I am going to enjoy that - being able to notice other men and their merits, without feeling guilty!
U and I ventured forth into the night, in her lovely car, and went and purchased the most infamous fastfood available in this city - KCs. It was AMAZING! Having not been able to eat properly in ages, my stomach doesn't know what has hit it. It just thinks in rainbows and butterflies...
Maybe my survival mechanisms have just kicked into overdrive, or maybe my third rule is the winner) but I am really not too glum. That said, its the hours just after midnight, the loneliest hours, who knows what will transpire in the fragile mind of mine. At least I have a cat, who incidentally, is doing somersaults to catch her tail as I write this.
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