While momentary pangs occur every now and then when I think of him with someone else, my current dispostion doesn't allow for any lengthy regret. But I am slowly seeing my path more clearly, really revealing how separate and different our lives have become.
And I am so excited - to distraction. Right now, mostly about the prayer movement. And then a little later when the challenge (Bank of America) gets released and starts that chain of events that will last till Thursday. Its the wonderful people that I get to encounter daily, with the same passions and drive, that is getting me through. Though, I am not sure that I am doing that - just getting through - I think I am running at such a pace towards what I have been longing for. Starting each day with surrender - my first thoughts are of Him, not him. And life is good. Still loving dubstep, still following the rules, but I don't feel trapped.
I think I underwent a proper paradigm shift sometime after I tidied my room a few days ago. It was like I cleaned the last of any memories away, set completely free, making way for all the wonderful new stuff...
To Do:
Finish Cloud article for Science Spin
Win Bank of America Challenge (prize=3,500)
Do assignment for database due next week
Go to all lectures and work
Have wonderful dinner with wonderful people tonight
Have lovely weekend after madness has abated
And keep this updated...
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